Prozac Nation

Wednesday, October 15, 2008
The Dow fell another 733 points (7.78%) to close at 8,577. Most of the major markets worldwide had their largest single day drop since 1987. I started my increased Prozac dosage today. I hope it doesn’t make me tired or affect me. Received my two books from Amazon today, “Night Falls Fast” by Kay Redfield Jamison and “Darkness Visible” by William Styron. Read the first 130 pages of “Night Falls Fast” today and found it to be quite interesting. Dad said he wants to get DirectTV so he can get “The Big Ten Network” channel so I told him what questions to ask our current cable carrier and the technitions at DirectTV. Tonight was the 3rd and final Presidential debate. McCain went on the attack and performed better but there was no game changer so I think Obama still has an 80% chance of being the next President.

Thursday, October 16, 2008
Spent more time working on my essay on the meaning of life. I have tentatively titled it “The Individual Perspective on Life” and I made tremendous progress today! However, the title is subject to change. I hope to complete it by October 18th. Also, read more of my “Night Falls Fast” book. I think I might have barely felt the effects of increasing my Prozac dosage but I think my body should adjust over the next week. Gabby is exhausted since he worked all day and then had a special board meeting to attend tonight for work as well.

Watched “Kath & Kim” about Kath promoting her home hair salon for the upcoming prom. On “The Office” Michael and the rest of the office was preparing a baby shower for Jan but she showed up to everyone’s surprise after already having the baby. Then, I caught the “Saturday Night Live” special mocking the Presidential debate.

Well it is official, I have Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD). My doctor diagnosed it and then Erin called tonight and said I have many of the typical side effects. I guess, now that I look back on my life, I can see many of the symptoms that are typical with OCPD. We just never realized before that I had the condition. I’m a perfectionist, small things out of order or small changes upset me, I like a regimented life with little change, I’m stingy with money and my mind races and I can’t control my thoughts. I guess it all makes sense.