I don't believe in magic

Tuesday, October 21, 2008
The Road Dog (the housekeeper) came today. Gabby went to the dentist and had 2 cavities filled. The crazy part is the dentist asked him if he wanted his mouth/gums to be numbed and Gabby said “no.” I can’t believe that. Sure, he’s trying to save money but come on. Is this the 1800’s? Why have dental work without having your mouth numbed? Gabby said, “It did hurt a little but I could take it, I am a man!” Then he got his blood work taken for his diabetes doctor next week. I wish him luck because I really worry when he goes to the doctor.

Watched “Dr. G. Medical” examiner about a couple found dad in a car in a church parking lot and a woman that claimed she shot her husband in self-defense. Also, caught the “Breaking the Magician’s Code” that I had recorded. They showed how to stick a rose through a girl and how to pass through a turbofan. Started reading my “Darkness Visible” book. I think I’ll like it, the author’s depression made him hit rock bottom. One of the few things that still entertains me is now that we have Direct TV, I flip through the porno channels – we don’t get the channels because they are pay-per-view but the menu displays the title of every movie – and the titles are so raunchy, so wrong, that it is hilarious.

I had to make out another check for $435 to pay for next month’s cobra health coverage. It’s breaking me. Every month my account balance drops and I have no money coming in. Sometimes I just feel like saying “screw it” and want to quiet paying the outrageous fees for coverage and medicine. I’m not even sure the meds work and neither is my doctor. At the very most, the only thing the meds do is treat the symptoms, not my actual condition. I live in America, which is not only suppose to be the world’s only superpower now, but the greatest superpower in the history of civilization, yet health bills are breaking me, just like they do many others. There are 47 million of us Americans with no health insurance at all. Moreover, a large portion of bankruptcies are not due to reckless spending but are due to medical bills.

All the polls have Obama’s lead increasing as we reach 14 days until the election. Obama leads by 10 points in many polls.

Erin called tonight because she was having computer problems. She needed to upgrade and purchase her Microsoft Office software to continue to use it but she was confused and bought the “Windows Vista” operating system instead. So, she spent $100 on the standard version of “Windows Vista” but she already had the more advanced professional version of “Windows Vista” on her computer! Besides spending $100 to buy an inferior operating system, this did not provide her with the full version of “Microsoft Office” that she really wanted all along. Also, since the new standard version of “Windows Vista” was installed, it erased all of her stored files on her computer. She was very upset and in tears on the phone. She called technical support and will get a restoration disk back with her old operating system but her files are lost forever and she doesn’t know if she can get her $100 back from Microsoft. She said she felt like a complete idiot.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Everyday just brings more bad news. Erin called this morning and said she threw out her back while bending over. She added that dad got a phone call from his doctor today saying he needs to go on insulin. They want his blood sugar level to be at a 7.0 but it was at 12.0. He’s not thrilled but he seems to be taking it ok. I’ll be sure to go with him to the doctor next Tuesday when he starts taking the shots. I feel like I’m going through the exact same process as I did 2 years ago when mom became sick but this time it is dad. I hope the outcome is much better this time.

God is a concept, by which we measure, our pain, I'll say it again, God is a concept, by which we measure, our pain, I don't believe in magic, I don't believe in I-ching, I don't believe in Bible, I don't believe in tarot, I don't believe in Hitler, I don't believe in Jesus, I don't believe in Kennedy, Í don't believe in Buddha, I don't believe in Mantra, I don't believe in gita, I don't believe in yoga, I don't believe in kings, I don't believe in Elvis, I don't believe in Zimmerman, I don't believe in Beatles, I just believe in me, And that's reality, The dream is over, What can I say?
The dream is over.

Rush Limbaugh continues to insist that the 10 point lead that many polls show for Obama is not accurate. Limbaugh says this is a very close race. We’ll see. Sent a follow up letter to Bunn seeking employment. It can’t hurt. I watched the “David Gilmour Live in Gdnask” concert that I taped from VH1 Classic. He’s no Roger Waters but the concert was pretty good. Rick Wright sang and played during the entire concert. It is a shame he is gone now but he’s better off than all of us now. Finally, the episode of “MonsterQuest” that I’ve been looking forward to for many weeks was on. The episode was about giant spiders, which legends claim reach up to 4 or 5 feet in length. As always, none were found but that is ok, I’m still terrified of spiders as small as a penny.

I better get to bed now…I’m sure another day of disappointments and heartaches awaits for tomorrow.